It has been almost two years to the day since I’ve posted to this blog. I’m not quite sure why. I just did not seem to be able to muster my thoughts for posting. Perhaps I grew weary of my own words and found satisfaction enough with the ‘picture frame’ exchange of facebook sharing. But now …. everything has changed. Nothing will ever be the same. There is cause for a rebaseline.
Just 4 weeks ago, on Friday, October 17, 2014, my 19 year old son Micah passed away. He took his own life.
I intend to share some of my journey here on this blog as I walk through the grief and the redefinition of living life in this new paradigm. My hope and prayer is that doing so may be part of my own healing and in that … to help me to somehow be an instrument of healing and encouragement to those closest to me. I love them so much. I so want to love them well. I am desperately committed to that.
Micah my son …I miss you so much.
Dad
Psalm 7O:1 God, hasten to deliver me; O Lord, hasten to my help!
Desperate Pursuit 
Thank you for pouring out your heart, Ted.
I am looking forward to taking this journey with you, Ted. Thanks for taking us along.
Ted, you and Renee are still in our prayers. When Sue was in the hospital with a broken back many years ago, it was II Corinthians 1:3-11 that became our anchor, then and since. In all circumstances God is faithful.
I, too am looking forward to every entry and to taking this journey with you and your family.
Thank you for sharing. I am your father’s first cousin Frances Rountree Couvillion. We live in Louisiana, where your father was from. I miss him and hope to see your mom soon.
My prayer is God will meet you in your pain and by his grace lift you up. Life does not always play by our rules. Great loss creates great pain. I can’t expain how God can be there but he is. I have experienced great loss but never to the extent you have. But I know a step one in the twelve step program has brought sanity tin crazy pain. “‘God I can not control those around me. Doing so is making me sick. I relinquish to you all the pain and control I of this insane situation. Only you can restore sanity.
I have watched God, in the middle od insanity bring me back to his peace. Let him hold you in the hallow of his hands. “Though you slay me yet will I trust you. And I know that I shall see you face to face. (Job) my prayers are with you.